“What’s the point of having countless books and libraries, whose titles could hardly be read through in a lifetime? The learner is not taught, but burdened by the sheer volume, and it’s better to plant the seeds of a few authors than to be scattered about by many.”
Seneca, On Tranquility of Mind.

The concept of ‘toxic productivity’ refers to the condition in which we set ourselves standards and goals to achieve (‘productivity’) which, by their very unachievable nature, leave us feeling unfulfilled, unworthy and incompetent (‘toxic’). It can be found on those occasions when, all-of-a-sudden and without prior planning, we find ourselves with time on our hands and nothing to fill it, and so we embark on creating a list of all the things we are going to do: clear the cupboards, sort the garage, redecorate, read a classic novel and, probably on everyone’s list, learn a new language! We forget Parkinson’s Law: work expands to fill the time available. We feel tired and unfulfilled.

Try focussing your efforts on just a handful of things. Make one of them being aware of the here-and-now and your part in that presence. Slow down, take notice.